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I forgot about live journal....anyone still using it??? Maybe ill start posting again x
- Location:home
- Mood:
curious - Music:nope
For those of you whose phone numbers I have not yet acquired, the word the Lord gave me this morning is for us all and was this:
Gideon was hiding from the enemy when the Lord called him, he claimed to be the weakest in his family yet with the Lord's strength he defeated an army! David, a small boy, killed the giant - he didnt wear the armour offered to him but he did wear the arnour of God! God uses the weak to confound the strong!
The Lord wants to restore His people that they may dance in joy and victory - He wants to restore YOU! You will defeat your giants through the strength of the Lord, always be equipped with His armour! Be ready, do not be afraid the Lord is with you, go in His strength! Do not harden your heart but let Him restore and renew you! The Lord knows and sees all, walk daily in His Spirit as a living testimony for Him!!!
Gideon was hiding from the enemy when the Lord called him, he claimed to be the weakest in his family yet with the Lord's strength he defeated an army! David, a small boy, killed the giant - he didnt wear the armour offered to him but he did wear the arnour of God! God uses the weak to confound the strong!
The Lord wants to restore His people that they may dance in joy and victory - He wants to restore YOU! You will defeat your giants through the strength of the Lord, always be equipped with His armour! Be ready, do not be afraid the Lord is with you, go in His strength! Do not harden your heart but let Him restore and renew you! The Lord knows and sees all, walk daily in His Spirit as a living testimony for Him!!!
- Location:Work
- Mood:
peaceful - Music:I wish!!!!!!!!!!!
I have posted on these verses before many moons ago after the Lord spoke to me about them and I have no idea why....or maybe I do (watch this space), but we need to hear them again.....and again......and again......so, well.....read em again :-)
Jeremiah chp 2 vs 11-13 "Has a nation changed its gods which are not gods? But my people have changed their Glory for that which does not profit. Be astonished O heavens, at this, And be horribly afraid; Be very desolate says the Lord. For my people have committed two evils: they have forsaken me the fountain of living waters, and hewn themselves cisterns - broken cisterns that hold no water."
- Mood:
pensive
I dunno what everyone else thought but I was totally inspired by the message that Doo brought on Friday, and we had an AWESOME prayer time after!!!!
Its so true that we dont have a heart for the lost the way we should, we are ineffective as christians....yet we hold the truth that sets them free!!! We compromise so easily and very often fade into the crowd.....Jesus has re-sparked my heart for the lost since Friday night....i remember the times when i had to go and pray after every youth meeting cos the burden I had for the unsaved was so intense....the Lord would give me visions and prophesies about the unsaved kids in the area............how did I get to a place where I let that go so easily???? I was honoured and privilaged enough that God chose to give me that burden....and its one that should remain until He says different!
If the early church could be as radical as they were with death possibly around the corner, then why do we find it so hard to speak up in case we get a 'slagging?' I for one want to an effective daughter of the King......I pray that the Lord will break our hearts and our selfish minds that so easily rule our actions and thoughts, the He will give a fresh vision, a new longing.....a heart like His.........God can move and He will move................if we are willing to sacrifice our all to follow wherever He leads us!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Loving ya'll
Julz :-) xxxxxxx
"If I truley believed what you were saying I would crawl on my hands and knees, to the other side of the world, over broken glass to see just ONE person saved!" - GIve me a heart like that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Its so true that we dont have a heart for the lost the way we should, we are ineffective as christians....yet we hold the truth that sets them free!!! We compromise so easily and very often fade into the crowd.....Jesus has re-sparked my heart for the lost since Friday night....i remember the times when i had to go and pray after every youth meeting cos the burden I had for the unsaved was so intense....the Lord would give me visions and prophesies about the unsaved kids in the area............how did I get to a place where I let that go so easily???? I was honoured and privilaged enough that God chose to give me that burden....and its one that should remain until He says different!
If the early church could be as radical as they were with death possibly around the corner, then why do we find it so hard to speak up in case we get a 'slagging?' I for one want to an effective daughter of the King......I pray that the Lord will break our hearts and our selfish minds that so easily rule our actions and thoughts, the He will give a fresh vision, a new longing.....a heart like His.........God can move and He will move................if we are willing to sacrifice our all to follow wherever He leads us!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Loving ya'll
Julz :-) xxxxxxx
"If I truley believed what you were saying I would crawl on my hands and knees, to the other side of the world, over broken glass to see just ONE person saved!" - GIve me a heart like that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Mood: rejuvenated
- Music:none
Ok so I have some complaints as to my lack of posting so I have decied that its time to get back on track with it all and start yet again to share with you what the Lord has been saying to me, as Olivia rightly told me its not like the Lord is giving me the silent treatment...................
So the most recent thing the Lord said to me was about having Joy......as in great Joy no matter what is going on around us............
Its amazing how we have so much to take joy in and yet we seem to think we have so much to worry about!
Paul said that "all things he has ever known, he counts it all as crap in comparison to the JOY of knowing the Lord" or something to that effect!
We have won the great fight, we are still fighting the battle yes, but Jesus already has the victory!
Death has died......there is nothing,not even death itself, that can stand in the way of our relationship with the Lord....I dunno about u but I happen to think thats pretty big, and pretty darn cool!!!!
Dont allow the devil to steal your joy, its your right as a child of God to be full of Joy unspeakable, the devil has NO power over you, freedom and victory are yours in the name of Jesus!!!!!!!!
I am so excited about what the Lord is doing and what He is going to do in the future.....it takes sacrifice yes, and we will mess up, thats our flesh, but no matter what God is always there, He is right beside us in all we do, He is continually holding our hand and continually there to pick us up when we fall! What a joy to even have jesus call us His friend, as Gary said on Friday night!
We need to be united as one (another word the Lord gave to me), to see the vision (not our vision by the way His vision), and to move forward in the Lord,full of joy, ready to fight, to sacrifice, to give our all for the joy and honour of being called His sons and daughters!
Lets be a people of purpose, a people of JOY.......after all its ours to claim in His name, and life would be less complicated than we make it out to be if we would just get a true hold on that......He is looking after us all the way and thats a reason to rejoice....and again I say REJOICE!!!!! Love ya's xxxxxxxxxxx
So the most recent thing the Lord said to me was about having Joy......as in great Joy no matter what is going on around us............
Its amazing how we have so much to take joy in and yet we seem to think we have so much to worry about!
Paul said that "all things he has ever known, he counts it all as crap in comparison to the JOY of knowing the Lord" or something to that effect!
We have won the great fight, we are still fighting the battle yes, but Jesus already has the victory!
Death has died......there is nothing,not even death itself, that can stand in the way of our relationship with the Lord....I dunno about u but I happen to think thats pretty big, and pretty darn cool!!!!
Dont allow the devil to steal your joy, its your right as a child of God to be full of Joy unspeakable, the devil has NO power over you, freedom and victory are yours in the name of Jesus!!!!!!!!
I am so excited about what the Lord is doing and what He is going to do in the future.....it takes sacrifice yes, and we will mess up, thats our flesh, but no matter what God is always there, He is right beside us in all we do, He is continually holding our hand and continually there to pick us up when we fall! What a joy to even have jesus call us His friend, as Gary said on Friday night!
We need to be united as one (another word the Lord gave to me), to see the vision (not our vision by the way His vision), and to move forward in the Lord,full of joy, ready to fight, to sacrifice, to give our all for the joy and honour of being called His sons and daughters!
Lets be a people of purpose, a people of JOY.......after all its ours to claim in His name, and life would be less complicated than we make it out to be if we would just get a true hold on that......He is looking after us all the way and thats a reason to rejoice....and again I say REJOICE!!!!! Love ya's xxxxxxxxxxx
- Location:Paul's house
- Mood:
jubilant - Music:Lukes mix of random stuff
I read this whilst......eh......sitting on the eh lavatory in the Crawford household and it brought tears to my eyes, amazing..............reminded me so much of myself...............
Melissa was the young girl who "vowed I would be tough; hard, like a rock," and became so for many years. But that is not the end of her story. She came to the place where Jesus asked to heal her wounded heart. She gave her permission to come in. This is what happened.
God went back and got the shaking little girl that was hiding under the bed and convinced her to come out. He unclenced her little fists and took her hand and placed it in his and answered her question. He held her and told her it was OK for her not to be tough. He would protect her. She didnt have to be strong. He told her she wasnt a rock but a child. An innocent child. His child. He didnt condem her for anything but instead understood her and loved her. He told her she was special...like no other and that she had special gifts like no other. She knew his voice and trusted him. She could hear the pleasure He had for her in His voice and felt His delight in her as He talked. He was so gentle and loving she couldnt help but melt in His arms.
Melissa was the young girl who "vowed I would be tough; hard, like a rock," and became so for many years. But that is not the end of her story. She came to the place where Jesus asked to heal her wounded heart. She gave her permission to come in. This is what happened.
God went back and got the shaking little girl that was hiding under the bed and convinced her to come out. He unclenced her little fists and took her hand and placed it in his and answered her question. He held her and told her it was OK for her not to be tough. He would protect her. She didnt have to be strong. He told her she wasnt a rock but a child. An innocent child. His child. He didnt condem her for anything but instead understood her and loved her. He told her she was special...like no other and that she had special gifts like no other. She knew his voice and trusted him. She could hear the pleasure He had for her in His voice and felt His delight in her as He talked. He was so gentle and loving she couldnt help but melt in His arms.
- Mood: complacent
The Lord gave me this word last night while I was praying and I thought I would share it with you all...................................
O LORD, I have heard Your speech and was afraid;
O LORD, revive Your work in the midst of the years!
In the midst of the years make it known;
In wrath remember mercy. Habakuk Chp 3 vs 2
God is raising up an army of people who are prepared to fight to the death!
Do not harden your hearts
Do not become self absorbed
Rebuke the lies of the devil!
Stand up and be counted
We have no time to waste!
The world is in rapid decay, all around us we see death and destruction
It's time to move forward
Its time to fight!
The is no room for those who are not dedicated to the cause even to the point of death
Pray without ceasing
Rise Up Rise Up!
Cry out to God from the bottom of your heart...
Break before Him
The time is now...
Do not turn your heart away from a lost and dying generation...
Embrace it...
Fight for it......................
The vision is Jesus! Obsessively, dangerously, undeniably Jesus. You see bones? I see an army!!!!!!!!!
O LORD, I have heard Your speech and was afraid;
O LORD, revive Your work in the midst of the years!
In the midst of the years make it known;
In wrath remember mercy. Habakuk Chp 3 vs 2
God is raising up an army of people who are prepared to fight to the death!
Do not harden your hearts
Do not become self absorbed
Rebuke the lies of the devil!
Stand up and be counted
We have no time to waste!
The world is in rapid decay, all around us we see death and destruction
It's time to move forward
Its time to fight!
The is no room for those who are not dedicated to the cause even to the point of death
Pray without ceasing
Rise Up Rise Up!
Cry out to God from the bottom of your heart...
Break before Him
The time is now...
Do not turn your heart away from a lost and dying generation...
Embrace it...
Fight for it......................
The vision is Jesus! Obsessively, dangerously, undeniably Jesus. You see bones? I see an army!!!!!!!!!
Well......another year already, I really can't believe that it's actually 2006 already!!!!! As I usually do around this time I took some time to consider what the last, in this case, 24 years have been all about......
I can still remember being a kid...blissfully ignorant of life and what its all about! I guess you realise after some years that you cant keep going backwards and that at some stage you have to accept that you are growing up, that there is stuff you have to face and responsibilities you have to face up to....so you just get on with it. I am learning that there is a beauty with growing up! I remember when I used to think that I would never grow up, just cos I didnt wanna.....now I see the benefits of knowing when to be an adult and when to let go and be a big kid! Anyway......
As always with a new year, I get quite upset...I miss my Mum a lot over xmas and New Year and everytime I think about it, it seems like just yesterday that I lost her instead of nearly 16 years ago. I have realised over time that this is a pain that I will probably live with forever and that it's something that will never go away....but it does get easier! I hope that she is looking down and smiling at me now...I hope I have made her proud of me!
I have a lot to think about at the minute....after just meeting my Dad, it has brought a lot of new and mixed emotions and Im still trying to find myself in the middle of it all and work out how it is im feeling exactly!! The biggest thing on my mind at the minute is the court case, with the date being set in Feb 06. I partly want it to go ahead so it will be over and partly dont cos I cant put into words how scared I am! My case officer thinks it will probably not go through on that date just cos thats what courts are like....faffy! If nothing else I have realised how unjust the justice system can be.....and what a long winded and drawn out process it is! It really screws up ur life and makes u have to put living on hold!
So.......another new year.....it may be happy, it may not! It may bring tears or smiles, heartaches or laughter.....it may bring all of the listed....whatever the case I just know that if it doesnt kill ya it can only make ya stronger! So Im gonna keep holding my head up high, Im gonna keep getting up when I fall and Im gonna remind myself everyday that I am a chosen daughter of the King, who is loved and cherished and who had been blessed with so many things they cant all be named......in the middle of the mess there is always a ray of sunshine......there is always an outstretched hand from the Daddy above....there is always a friendly face or a kind word sent when its needed.......and thats worth living for.....cos smiling can inspire others to smile too :-)
I can still remember being a kid...blissfully ignorant of life and what its all about! I guess you realise after some years that you cant keep going backwards and that at some stage you have to accept that you are growing up, that there is stuff you have to face and responsibilities you have to face up to....so you just get on with it. I am learning that there is a beauty with growing up! I remember when I used to think that I would never grow up, just cos I didnt wanna.....now I see the benefits of knowing when to be an adult and when to let go and be a big kid! Anyway......
As always with a new year, I get quite upset...I miss my Mum a lot over xmas and New Year and everytime I think about it, it seems like just yesterday that I lost her instead of nearly 16 years ago. I have realised over time that this is a pain that I will probably live with forever and that it's something that will never go away....but it does get easier! I hope that she is looking down and smiling at me now...I hope I have made her proud of me!
I have a lot to think about at the minute....after just meeting my Dad, it has brought a lot of new and mixed emotions and Im still trying to find myself in the middle of it all and work out how it is im feeling exactly!! The biggest thing on my mind at the minute is the court case, with the date being set in Feb 06. I partly want it to go ahead so it will be over and partly dont cos I cant put into words how scared I am! My case officer thinks it will probably not go through on that date just cos thats what courts are like....faffy! If nothing else I have realised how unjust the justice system can be.....and what a long winded and drawn out process it is! It really screws up ur life and makes u have to put living on hold!
So.......another new year.....it may be happy, it may not! It may bring tears or smiles, heartaches or laughter.....it may bring all of the listed....whatever the case I just know that if it doesnt kill ya it can only make ya stronger! So Im gonna keep holding my head up high, Im gonna keep getting up when I fall and Im gonna remind myself everyday that I am a chosen daughter of the King, who is loved and cherished and who had been blessed with so many things they cant all be named......in the middle of the mess there is always a ray of sunshine......there is always an outstretched hand from the Daddy above....there is always a friendly face or a kind word sent when its needed.......and thats worth living for.....cos smiling can inspire others to smile too :-)
Its funny how a nite in bed, a day at work and a Bible study with great fellowship can change your whole perspective on a situation!
I feel like a dumbass for feeling the way I did the other nite. I had a great chat with Joy about it the other nite (you rock by the way), and we were just talkin about the reasons why I felt that way and random stuff like that! I have no idea why I get that way, I really need to find some stability in my emotions, i'll keep praying for that, I mean im not a crazy nut or anything (no Im really not)! I just get down when I have too much time to think about all that's ahead of me....
I go to visit my Dad the first week in Dec, thats gonna be crazy, I have no idea how I feel about it all...for once im a bit emotionless, which kinda scares me. I guess I'm trying to protect my heart cos I know its not gonna be like I want it to be, its not gonna be the fairytale "daughter is re-united with father stuff." Hmmmmmmmm
Apart for all that life is sweet again, for now haha! I went to work today and it was great to be back! I have a big event tomorrow and Im gonna be flat out, being crazy and 'responsible' for about 80 kids in my 'green team' lol its so sad, but I love it :-) Now it must be lights out time, long day ahead (thankfully) JCBU xxxxxx
I feel like a dumbass for feeling the way I did the other nite. I had a great chat with Joy about it the other nite (you rock by the way), and we were just talkin about the reasons why I felt that way and random stuff like that! I have no idea why I get that way, I really need to find some stability in my emotions, i'll keep praying for that, I mean im not a crazy nut or anything (no Im really not)! I just get down when I have too much time to think about all that's ahead of me....
I go to visit my Dad the first week in Dec, thats gonna be crazy, I have no idea how I feel about it all...for once im a bit emotionless, which kinda scares me. I guess I'm trying to protect my heart cos I know its not gonna be like I want it to be, its not gonna be the fairytale "daughter is re-united with father stuff." Hmmmmmmmm
Apart for all that life is sweet again, for now haha! I went to work today and it was great to be back! I have a big event tomorrow and Im gonna be flat out, being crazy and 'responsible' for about 80 kids in my 'green team' lol its so sad, but I love it :-) Now it must be lights out time, long day ahead (thankfully) JCBU xxxxxx
- Mood: content
Sometimes I
just feel like I'm falling...I dont see anything around me just
darkness...Im just falling! Everything inside of me knows the way to
stop falling, the way to catch myself and put my feet back on solid
ground...but I have no energy to do it, so instead...I just keep
falling...
I can see the darkness all around...the only thing that I can do in
this place is listen, listen to my own thoughts, listen to my own
tears...
Its a lonely place here...there are lots of people still here,
somewhere on the outskirts of all thats going on, but it doesnt feel
like they are here, they just seem like faces, voices, muffled sounds
all around that in some way atempt to fill the quietness...but
eventually even those voices fade out, those faces dissapear...then its
just dark again...
I know that one day I wont fall anymore, one day I will see God well
enough again to forget that this place ever existed...I have been here
before, a long time ago...I dont know how I got back here, but I cant
stay, not for long, cos no-one likes to fall.....I know the light is
trying to get in, all I need to do is open the door...
Catch me
- Mood:empty
